Gabrielle Bernstein's Spirit Junkie Masterclass: My story of transformation
For years I was the life of the party until the party was the death of me. I got sober in 2003. Months leading up to the date I put down substances and booze, I was more afraid of living than dying. My life was a drunken haze of bad decisions, insecurities and missed opportunities. I was soul sick and miserable. On Monday December 15, 2003 I woke up in someone else’s bed after a weekend bender. I looked at the person and announced, “I’m getting sober today” as if I was Elle Woods announcing I was going to Harvard. Then I walked home. It was the first day in a long time that I didn’t say, “I’d rather be dead.” So, I really did get sober on that day. It was the beginning of a long and hard journey into sobriety, finding myself and figuring out what I was going to do with this life I decided to keep on living. As I got sober I started to see that things around me were not what I thought they were. I worked in banking at JP Morgan Chase and I had no idea why I even worked there. Whose life was I trying to live? Who was I trying to be? I sure as hell didn’t want to be a banker. As days turned into years of sobriety, I grew and opened, got onto a neat career track in writing/reporting/TV and digital marketing. I met the man who would become my husband and cleaned up a lot of my shit. I was a shiny example that when you make changes in your life, your life starts to change. It was all good.
By 2010 I’d been sober for a number of years yet I found myself living in a grey area. I was not living my best life. I had surpassed the need to live on drugs and alcohol, but there was something missing and I had no idea what it was. I found my way into self-help books and podcasts at the recommendation of a friend. I started with Louise Hay’s You Can Heal Your Life. It hooked me in and I started doing the affirmations and things got better. I was still miserable in a job with a toxic boss and affirmations weren’t cutting it. A co-worker who also loved self-help kept talking about Gabby Bernstein. She is a NYT best-selling author, life coach and motivational speaker. I finally looked her up and listened to an audio recording of her lecture “The F Word”. I’m big on swearing so I was ready to tap into that. Her F word, though, was forgiveness. Based on what she said, I needed to forgive my boss. My resentments were causing the block, if I could forgive her, the resentments would dissipate. I was open to working on that and something about listening to Gabby made me feel safe. She openly talked about being sober and our stories were kind of similar, so I really identified with her. Since we both lived in New York, I took a chance and e mailed her. She actually e mailed me back and was genuinely excited that I reached out. She told me to come to one of her lectures. At the time I met her she was about launch her 2nd book, Spirit Junkie, and she regularly held lectures at the Gay and Lesbian Community Center and ran monthly group coaching workshops. She is what was missing. I quickly fell in love with her personality and accepted her as my spiritual teacher. Her following was a lot more modest back then and I was one of the few men in the room. We became friends and to this day I always say I was one of the first Gays for Gabby.
I became devoted to the work and to receiving Gabby’s message. Anytime there was a lecture or book launch, I was there. She taught me and handed me the guidebook to “live my best life.” It was all about clearing the fear, setting intentions, manifesting and meditating. I did the work and it worked. By 2014 I had a booming career in NYC and I was pulling in about $17,000 a month in consulting fees, I got married that June and I was all love and light.
The day after I got married one of my clients who was not great at getting back to me or giving feedback when I sent things to approve changed the passwords and locked me out of the social media accounts I was managing. It felt like a slap in the face to be ghosted by a client; fear rushed in. To save them the uncomfortable conversation that they clearly didn’t want to have, I resigned. A week later my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. She was told by doctors that she had probably 6 to 12 months to live. It was panic, horror and sadness. Two weeks later I started smoking. By October 2014 I was a MESS as I kept predicting what it would feel like the day my mom died. What would I do without her? My self-care went out the window. I lost 2 big clients on the same day and then a week later I relapsed on alcohol. The relapse lasted only 24 hours, but it was like I was back in 2003 again. Over 10 years of being sober bought me no control when I picked up the drink on October 7th.
What the f*ck happened? That’s when I realized, it didn’t happen. I let it happen. I stopped doing the work. My faith turned to fear and I fell back into the shit. On October 8, 2014 I woke up again, decided to get sober and got honest, really honest. With myself. I took a good hard look at where things fell short, and it was all in the spiritual realm. I had massive emotional wounds and unresolved trauma that needed healing. I was decorating the outsides with accomplishments while the insides needed the most attention. Knowing that was the key to my success. I could now build my house on rock, not on sand. I immediately dove back into the work to get and stay sober, I doubled down on Gabby books + lectures and I found a daily meditation practice that worked for me. As painful as all of this was, there's a gift in all of it. My mom, by some miracle, is still living and doing well and we are practically best friends. We speak every day and we have a lot of fun. No matter what happens in the future, I'm grateful for what I have today. I'm sober 3.5 years and this level of sobriety feels like a higher quality than I had when I was 10 years sober. I have ZERO regrets about relapsing. I've learned the amount of time you have sober isn't as important as how much you are committed to your sobriety on a daily basis. So I keep it in the day!
Today I wouldn’t even recognize who I was on October 7th 2014. I had done so much work up to that point, but the real work began in the fall of 2014 after my relapse. I have experienced profound healing and transformation since then with the help and support of many. All the experiences I have had over the years (the good and the bad), led me to the teachers, tools and spiritual practices I needed to better my life and help me stay in my lane. I stopped feeling so much shame about what a mess I was and started embracing that it’s OK to work to heal and be happy. In the past I had this secret shame for doing so much self-help, believing that I was so broken. I held onto the belief that if I wasn’t broken, I wouldn’t have to do all that work. I know that’s not true; anyone would benefit from working on themselves. We’re born perfect, the world f*cks us up, then we have to find teachers and tools and work to be happy. BOOM. That’s the secret to life.
As I’ve done the work, there’s been a really cool byproduct. I have attracted people who have also struggled or are struggling that are interested in the tools I have that work for me. They want to know what I did to get to where I am. It’s like my struggles created a demand…So I started sharing tools and meditation practices, recommending books, podcasts and teachers. As the people who asked for help began doing the work, they started healing. It’s a process. It’s the work. It’s contagious. It’s OK to work to be happy and it’s OK to talk about it. That’s why I’m talking about it.
In 2015 I started having this gnawing feeling inside, that I was being called for something more. I felt like I had a higher purpose, but I didn’t know if it was just a grandiose thought. I kept thinking about my life and my path, the ups and the downs and the good and the bad. I felt immense gratitude for all of it but wondered, what does this all add up to? I had been very private about being sober for years, rarely telling people and after I relapse I only told people in my support network for fear of being judged or worrying people. Yet, I was having this desire to let my story out in a way that would reach people and help them feel OK. I texted Gabby and I was like, “Did you ever feel like you were called to do the work you are doing? I sometimes get a feeling like I’m meant to be doing more than I’m doing. Like I should be sharing my story and helping more people. Am I making this up? Where do I begin?” She wrote back, “Yes, you are a lightworker.” Having no idea what that meant I just said, “Thank you.” Two weeks later she texted me a link to a free webinar and said, “I want you to have this training”. It was information about her first Spirit Junkie Masterclass (SJM) Live. I attended the webinar and the stories she told and words she used shot through me and I had goosebumps. This was what I was waiting for. She shared a story about one sentence she heard that changed the course of her life and teachings. Yogi Bhajan, the great Kundalini master said, “I am not here to create disciples, I’m here to create teachers.” Gabby shifted her mission based on that sentence—not just to share tools that help people heal their lives. But to teach people who are healing to be teachers, to share their transformational stories, to help others heal. Gabby created a course with curriculum to teach people how to be teachers. That is what the Spirit Junkie Masterclass is. Watch video below for more details:
During the webinar, everything she said resonated: “If you feel called to be a spiritual teacher, this is your time?” “Are you ready to step into your power? Are you ready to rise up?” It felt like all of this was the answer to all my questions swirling in my head. The final thing she said WAS my answer. She said, “If you are thinking ‘who am I to serve’, who are you not to serve? There are far more people in this world who need healing than there are healers. If you are a lightworker, this is for you. If you are feeling called, this is your answer.” I signed up for Gabrielle Bernstein’s Spirit Junkie Masterclass and never looked back. If I’m a lightworker, I better learn how to use my light. This is one of the most important and impactful decisions I’ve made in my life.
In June of 2015 I went to the Spirit Junkie Masterclass in New York. It’s hard to put my experience at SJM into words. It’s one of those things you do that you know deep down that you will be changed forever. The course curriculum is on point in terms of how to build your business; but it was the speakers, lessons, meditations and writing exercises, and how they are perfectly ordered, that cracked me open. And I mean really open. Ideas flooded into my mind, I felt moved by spirit, I dug deep and found more blocks that needed to be released or old emotional wounds that needed to be healed. I was given tools and resources to seek more healing. I was basically given an outline on HOW to build a business. I got it all. I did the work and I am forever changed. I promise you, you will not find someone who has done SJM who does not echo that sentiment. I have done the Spirit Junkie Masterclass digital version too – which is what is available now and the course is profound.
The Spirit Junkie Masterclass was a chance I took to improve my life/career and an investment I made in myself for my future. On some level it helped me heal my past even more. It helped me see I was ready for what I was being called to do: To help people clean up their shit by sharing my story and the tools that helped me clean up mine. To empower people to clean up their lives so that they can clear the path to their best life. I learned my way into seeing how my “story” and my healing journey is my credibility to help others. Today my messy past is my message of truth and healing. It all serves a purpose. After SJM I began writing more honestly about parts of my life that needed healing and the tools I used to heal them, I started speaking publicly on healing anxiety and shame and I’ve been on TV to teach organization and meditation. I now openly share about topics I’m passionate about and it’s really fun and really f*cking cool. I’m on track to write a book; SJM showed me where and how to begin. Some of the darkest parts of my life have now been spoken through a microphone to audiences. When someone comes up to me afterword and says, “You made me feel normal today” I know that sharing very personal parts of my life isn’t a bad thing. When someone drops me a DM or e mail after reading a “real talk” blog post I’ve written and says, “This really helped me” I know it’s good that I put myself out there.
It’s a risk stepping out into the light to share a deeply personal story or begin a service-based career where you help or coach people. If you know you are being called, there is a reward for putting yourself out there. Who could you help? Who could you serve? Maybe you want to write a book. Maybe you want to stand on stages and help people transform their lives. Maybe you want create digital courses that will benefit so many people. All of that is part of the SJM Digital Curriculum which is on sale now. I’m sharing all of this with you--my darkest parts of my story and how I found my way back into the light through Gabby’s teachings and how her epic Spirit Junkie Masterclass gave me the courage + tools I need to get out there and share my message to help people--because I want you to be in your truth and your light.
If this resonates with you, take a look at SJM digital:
Open enrollment is live for SJM Digital until Thursday June 21st at 6pm EST. The Prices is $1,999, which includes lifetime access to all the modules and new content which is regularly added. Gabby will also include $3,500 in bonuses including Spirit Junkie Business Basics Digital program (all the nuts and bolts of how to set up a company, including contracts, negotiation tools, insurance, etc.) and 2 live group coaching calls.
If $1,999 seems a bit scary, you can have it broken down into 12 monthly payments of $192. If you invest in SJM digital, you’re investing in yourself. If you do the work outlined in the course, digging deep, busting through blocks, healing and becoming a shiny example of your transformational story, you will keep healing and you will help others heal. The course tells you how to get your message out there, how to do marketing to attract clients or sponsorships and how to unapologetically get paid what you deserve for this deeply important work. Gabby and experts tell you how to prepare to write a book, lead a meditation, give a transformational talk, build an online business and sell digital courses. It’s all in there! There’s really so much more, but Gabby explains all that - click button below!
Some bonuses through me:
In addition to all of Gabby’s bonuses, if you sign up through the link I provided, you will get some bonuses from me: 3 one-hour coaching sessions with me (in person if you are in the Twin Cities) or via Facetime or Phone anywhere in the world.
Here are some ways we can work together:
-I can help support you through the SJM course and your transformation.
-I’m a mindset fixer, so I can help you with any issue or block you might be facing and give you tools to move beyond it.
-If you have an online business or are an aspiring social media influencer, I’m a social media coach. I can do a deep dive audit of your content or help you define content goals + strategy.
-I can teach you meditations on how to tap into your higher self to define your life’s purpose or mission.
All of the above are things that you can take with you into the SJM digital course to really get into your zone and turn your passion into a career! To get my bonuses, you have to sign up through my special affiliate link that is linked throughout this post!
Open enrollment with all the bonuses ends on Thursday June 21st at 6pm EST.
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Gabby's Bonuses in detail: Here is more info on the bonuses Gabby is offering *in addition to* the 3 one hour coaching sessions with me. Enroll by Thursday June 21st at 6 pm ET to lock in:
Spirit Junkie Business Basics Digital Program. Gabby created this comprehensive program with her team of business pros. It has the nuts and bolts you need when setting up a business: contracts, negotiating tools, insurance info and much more. (Value: $1,300)
God Is My Publicist digital course. Demystify publicity and marketing with this awesome course for spiritual entrepreneurs, coaches, writers, artists, podcasters and anyone who wants to infuse their spiritual beliefs into PR or marketing work in any field. (Value: $200)
2 live group online trainings with Gabby! The first training will help you clarify your visions and clear the obstacles holding you back. The second will get you into action! (Value: $2,000)
Lifetime access to the Spirit Junkie Masterclass community. You can return to the private Facebook page long after you’ve taken the course to continue connecting with like-minded Spirit Junkies. (Value: priceless!)
That’s $3,500 in bonuses!